Mencari Katarsis

technology hunters :) so, today is the last day of the year 2010 . 2010 has brought real meaningful memories to me. i've met new friends, i've made mistakes, i've gain success, and i've open myself; theoretically and practically to others. i don't really trust anyone but my family. i have a hard time to put my trust on anybody. for me, to trust is to be loyal. sometimes, i felt my heart broken into pieces having a friend whom i trusted to crush that particular 'trust'. so, to just comfort myself, i store that 'trust' deep down in my heart so that i would not get my heart broken anymore. that's me. i hate it when i got my heart broken and when i tell anyone, they'll just spread out a few 'comforting' lines of sentences despite the truth that they don't really care. you know, you may see me as someone who looks like the 'living life to the fullest' or 'forget everything, just smile' type. i just don't share the u...

well, technology hunters :0 let me cool down first. haihhh. i was sort of disappearing last week. as so you know, i went for a 3-days-3-nights vacation with my family at Cherating. it was funny. at first, i thought Cherating was at Pahang so i had it in my mind that i could swim in the sea and play along the beach and blabla; sort of. so, i slept along the way. i woke up when we stopped by Genting Sempah. and then i continued my 'resting time'. hahah. then, i somehow woke up and saw that we had just passed the borderline of Pahang and Terengganu. when i asked my mother wasn't Cherating at Pahang, she answered "lahaii..". there you go.

technology hunters :) Makan minum di tangan Tuhan. Tidur bangun di tangan Tuhan. Kalah menang di tangan Tuhan. Hidup mati pun di tangan Tuhan. Segala-galanya. Tak terkecuali. Dan

techno world :) as all of you know, growing up is not that easy. especially if you are a teenager. it's teenage life, man. it's all about enjoying everything that comes in your way. truly, i am 16! i am supposed to rebel. the hardest part is that i am not sure about what i really want, and even what i love or hate. for a moment, i like this. later it turn out to be i hate this, i like that. life is really easy for some people. they do not have to worry about how worse their grades have been, or how much money is left in their pockets. recently, it has struck me that i have to start thinking of my own life, not others anymore. i have a life. it's now up to me how i am going to live it. i really can't forget what a friend of mine said not long ago, "tahun depan ko pekse wei" . and i can't believe i am repeating this once again, i hate thinking about the future. freakishly. now, it is time to meet the future. i am not quite sure of either i do not want to fa...

, just jump off the building.

these are 7 things about me that you probably don't know. 'probably' is a suitable word since you may tell me you knew it and whatsoever craps hahah. number 1. i HATE short notices. so let me know about any events that are going to happen 2 days before okeh? number 2. i AM a RAINGER!! muahahahhahh yeh yeh i am damn proud of it :DD number 3. i HATE fast food although they are so delicious. aku lg suke gulai lemak ke, cili api ke. xde gulai xsedap lah. number 4. i LOVE indie bands. malaysia punya lah. you can talk indie with me :) number 5. i DON'T REALLY LIKE kids. but truly, kids like me! number 6. i HATE marshmallows. and number 7. i FREAKINGLY LOVE Kit Kat. full stop. unexplainable.

technology hunters :) i prefer not to call it 'the comeback'. its sounds 'spooky' hahah. anyways, i am very truly sorry for abandoning you, PANIC!. i hate to explain why so i left the hatred somewhere else. i really freakingly miss typing to you, PANIC!. now, we meet again :) *gile so, the last few weeks before school ended were hectic. i did not entered my class for the whole two weeks after exam. tipu lah, aku masuklah kejap2. but, i managed to escape on the last week of school. see, i need a rest. i am exhausted. and recently, as the holiday has started, my money flew up high. i saw my money was taking a flight to all around the world. and there goes my money. on friday, the photography team's high tea was okeh. it was okeh, okeh. it's a lie. it was boring. we ate and talked. ate and talked. ate and talked. never mind, at least i ate and talked with my friends hahah. and on saturday, we ate pozzo for the class party. at least that was free. i was so jealous o...