Assalamualaikum. How did I manage to survive the past one determining year? It didn't matter how actually, it matters that I lived out of that. Beautifully. Yeap. My life this past year was beautiful. Nothing was ever that beautiful. A fast-paced, beautiful year. How beautiful it was to me? Indescribable. I consciously remembered the moment I came in with a smile and a very positive mind. I made sure my mind was positive. Damn positive. More positive than those nerds getting ready to enter the examination hall. I was positive that I could make some friends. Amazingly, I made many friends. I love making new friends. "I treasure my old ones perfectly". I made friends crazier than me, more loveable, quieter, the ones that are smarter than me, more independent and surprisingly, I found the ones having the same way of thinking as me. Now here I am at 2.45 am reminiscing the most memorable year in my life. Yet. There is much more to come. I can feel it. Gee...
I forgot how to write. I always wrote as if someone is reading. Now I know no one is reading, let me just pour it all out. I am so unsure of someone now. Is this the right person or am I being delusional? My best friend keeps saying "Don't settle for less" but how do I know if it's less, enough or just what I needed? I pray hard so that if this is right, be close and if it isn't, stay far. P/s: So casually cruel in the name of being honest.
techno world :) It has been a while. A while since I got my tears rolled down on my cheeks. A while since someone lent her shoulder for me to cry on. A while since someone told me to just let everything go. It is hard. Freakingly hard to let go. As time flies, you wouldn't know how great certain things have affected you. You wouldn't realise. So did I. One thing I realised is I am not as soft as before. Hard situations could easily make me cry. Ask Farah. Now, you say what you want, just anything you want, to me, I don't know why but you'll get a sarcastic reply. I assure you. That made me hurt people's feelings easily. And I hate that. Many things had happened in this three weeks. Tragic things. It struck my mind that life is short. So short. So fragile. Appreciate what you have now. Who am I to tell you how fragile life is anyway? p/s : 'Hasbiyallahu wanikmal wakil : cukuplah Allah sebagai pengatur bagiku'.
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