Mencari Katarsis

Let me vent my anger here for a while as I find this medium the most suitable now. Profesionalisme itu dipupuk sedari fasa hidup sebagai pelajar. Itu yg dinamakan belajar. Kalau salah, belajar yg betul. Kalau betul, ambil iktibar. Kalau tak tahu, tanya. Kalau tak suka, suarakan dengan betul. Ada cara yg betul untuk suarakan ketidakpuasan diri, pandangan dan perbezaan pendapat. Cara ini dinamakan adab. Orang yg lebih tua dan majikan kau lebih-lebih lagi mesti nak yg terbaik dalam pekerjaan. Sampai bila nak gunakan alasan "introvert"? Lapuk dah wei. Ni sampai mak aku pun tegur aku. Mak aku risau betul pasal kerja ni. Bodoh ke aku kalau tak reti nak sound kau? Aku pun bukan tak reti sebenarnya. Aku tak suka buang masa. Ego tak boleh usik. Aku sangat tak suka apabila prestasi aku dikaitkan dengan orang lain secara profesional. Aku tahu cara aku bekerja. Aku tak kata aku mahir sebab aku masih belajar. Sekarang prestasi aku dikaitkan dengan kau yg memang tak ambil kisah langsun...

Assalamualaikum. Currently, I'm a full-time intern at Labis, Johor. Sometimes, I barely got time to rest. The surroundings here was welcoming at first but as we went week by week, I sincerely hope this phase would end faster. I came here with a thought that I could challenge myself. Be it social interaction to work ethics. I know I could learn much here. What I didn't expect was the working environment. It's frustrating when you're still working at night and meddling with discussions that put you in an inferior situation. You're not in the position to question some things but when you do, no one wants to listen. How downgraded are interns, especially when you looked like you don't know a thing. Working with different types of people can really broaden your views. It's confusing at times but most of the time, you have no choice but to follow orders even though they are wrongly made. You have no voice in the decision-making stage at all. That happens when y...

Assalamualaikum. Even though it has been a few months since we parted, I know you were waiting for our return patiently. Things were very hard these few months. However, realising the fact that you were with me through those ups and downs, I felt at ease. This letter will be filled with a bunch of 'I's and 'You's. In this world of 'I's and 'You's, I'd like you to know I absolutely enjoyed our time together. Sometimes, when there was too much of 'I's, I did try to allow some 'You's. I adore you at the times when you didn't know what to do and how to do things but in the end, you finished the task perfectly. You are far more capable than what you imagined. Just so you know, you're brilliant and you deserve to feel brilliant. I hope you find your way no matter what. I know you will, I'm telling you just so you know. Whenever you feel lost, I'd like you to remember that you've saved my phone number years ago and i...

Benarkan aku berbicara Untuk malam ini sahaja. Deruan hujan bukanlah titisan Kerlipan kilat bukanlah mentari Dentuman guruh sekadar peneman. Malam ini Kurasakan ruang-ruang kosong yang mengisi hati semakin jelas tiang-tiang serinya Bilik-bilik suram yang menghuni teratak jiwa tiada berpenunggu Alur-alur yang bertampungkan habuk dan debu Nyata terdiam kaku. Malam ini Kusedari lengkok-lengkok hidup ini kian berpusar pada satu paksi Jalan ini bukanlah lurus lagi malah bersimpang-siur Sesat tanpa pedoman dan pimpinan. Malam ini Kuharap esok kan ketemu dikau yang jauh Kan kukenali dikau yang misteri Kuhadiahi pena buat mencoret Sebaris hikmah rindu dalam warkah sayu Pada yang mengerti. Syzurya, Seremban, 4 Mei 2017; 2.47 pagi.

In one of the busiest cities in the world, I felt delighted, calm and secured. To have rested my head on your shoulder, I felt at ease. Another friend by my side, I felt blessed. A big journey on the go, I felt adventurous. A moment of a lifetime, I felt deserved. P/s : London did justice.

Assalamualaikum. I love you. So much that I expected you to be by my side all the time. So much that I expected you to support me all the time. So much that I disregarded that you have a mind and feeling of your own.    We have been friends for 5 years now. I hope we stay this way forever. I like it when you make me think of situations rationally. You have always had your way out of difficult situations. And I have always looked upon you for that. Forgive me for the things I did and words I said that caused you displeasure. Those either voluntary or involuntary deliberate actions won't matter now because they were all in the past. I really hope you succeed in your future rush. I know you are indeed capable and brilliant so please have it your way. You are a beautiful being and more ladylike than you imagined.  Let's continue making memories. Love, Syzurya In between Ireland and England skies, 29 April 2017.