5 Years Later

 Hi. 9.44 p.m. It has been a heavy day for me.

Blog, I haven't seen you for years. I suddenly felt the urge to scroll over and write. I know no one would be reading and hence, this is a very safe space for me. Bear with me, would you please?

Over the past 5 years, I have moved jobs, towns, and houses. The talks about establishing a corporate career seriously bore me. I am not interested in it at all. "Go climb your greasy ladder," as what Rosie shouted in Love, Rosie. Took up hiking in recent years. Hiked 8 mountains now plus 13 hills and 3 trails. Still looking for a place to call home though. 

Life has been wobbly. Ohh, I tasted love. Blog, I've tasted love. Can you imagine?! I yearned for it years back and The Almighty granted it. Alhamdulillah.

All I can say is Alhamdulillah. Might not be the ending I expected but one thing I failed to see (over many, indeed) is how I am surrounded by His mercy all along. He granted my prayers, oh He did. 

Learning a part of your flaws, never once did it lessen the love I have for you. I choose to love you more.

I've never cared about psychology, teories about human interaction and understanding people. Socially, I am very illiterate. I can be the extrovert who surfaces at times but being in a relationship truly brought out the best and worst in yourself. 

I better not write much about the other party. Sorry Blog, I'm gatekeeping it. I'll just tell you one thing. He's not a white horse and heck, I don't even want a white horse. I want what I've always preached, "a loyal heart that never grows cold". 

If The Most Merciful wills for a better day, I truly believe in second chances. 10 years have passed but my stand is solid. I truly believe in getting, giving and appreciating a second chance to make things right. That's what I hoped for a decade ago. 

I started stamping resolutions since 3 years ago. On 2024, I said to myself not to have any regrets. Last year, I promised to have a more quality life. I'll tell you what I'd do this year. I'm going to accomplish as much as I can from my wishlists so next year I can start afresh with an entirely new, long term goal. 

Quite some updates, ain't it? Enough for now. I'll see you in several years (or heck, maybe next month). Wish me well, would you?

Best moments of tranquility ever. Nothing is ever permanent and important in this world.

P/s: Birthday coming up in about a month. I don't mind being a year older and I've accepted gray hairs. What should we plan for the 10th, Blog?