Mencari Katarsis

Benarkan aku berbicara Untuk malam ini sahaja. Tetapi malam ini Bukan bicara yang ingin aku luahkan Bukan kata-kata yang ingin aku hamparkan Biarkan air mata ini berguguran Untuk malam ini sahaja. Sayang dan cintanya aku pada persahabatan ini Tidak sekali-kali dapat aku ungkapkan dengan perkataan Walau dengan bingkisan dan juga pesanan Wahai sahabat, wahai teman Kita sememangnya sehaluan. Siapakah yang mahu kehilangan momen-momen indah Saat kita suka Hinggakan putih kapas awan serta biru suci langit pun Mampu mengukir senyum dan tawa Pada riak kita. Hidup ini, sahabatku, umpama roda Aku tidak pinta kau memahamiku Kerana aku sedar terhadnya pemahaman manusia Aku cuma mahu Kau sedar saat kita berduka Bahu ini ada untukmu. Sudah sejauh ini Kita berlari Dalam langkah yang sama Kau dan aku Sudah tidak ada beza. 26 Mei 2016, Serdang.

Remember the time when we used to be together? We were always together. Your presence is significant to mine. We were so related that it was weird to not see us together. Life is so mysterious. One moment you're here and the next you're there. Anyway, it is now time to move on.

Katakan sahaja wahai sahabat Segala yang terbuku di hatimu Luahkan sahaja wahai sahabat Apa yang sekian lama bertamu Usah memendam wahai sahabat Masa berduka sudah berlalu Wahai sahabatku, Tatkala tinta ini mengalir dari mata pena, Apakah kau tidak merasa, Waktu kita lalui bersama, Apakah kau tidak merindui, Saat kita bersuka ria. Kembalilah wahai sahabat, Kembalikan sahabatku yang dulu, Yang hari-harinya subur dengan tawa Dan leka dengan gembira. Aku gundah Fasa hidup ini yang memisahkan kita Akan kekal selama-lamanya. 18 Mac 2016, Serdang.

Benarkan aku berbicara Untuk malam ini sahaja. Berseorangan Tahun-tahun yang berlalu Waktu kita masih samar-samar Tentang apa yang bakal berlaku Hari esok Aku perhati Kau sentiasa di situ Menantikan kelopak Zulaikha Gugur di atas riba Mungkin aku naif Akan erti hibamu ketika itu Namun, sayangku, Sudahlah, Aku siapkan bahu ini untukmu. Kesatlah air mata dan keringat Kaca ini yang selalu di sini Pinta dianggap bak sebutir permata Ironi sekali. ------------------ Is it weird for me to think that no matter how differently you and I see things, we always concluded them in a similar way? P/s : Chances, dear. Just let me have one already.

Assalamualaikum. It has been a while since I expressed myself on this page, literally. So yeah, I am doing good. It's semester break now and everyday at home is hectic. I accept that family is priority. I have less than five days left for this break (that is supposed to be over after 2 weeks) and that is all because of commitments.   Commitments, people! It's scary! Nothing scares you more than a commitment!  I used to have that kind of thoughts. They are still here, at times. You see, sometimes commitments chase you and all you have is to give in and work your sweat off. But sometimes too, you feel like doing something just to prove something. To yourself, mainly. Set that aside, my seniors who are very close to me just flew to Australia for their internship yesterday. I wanted to send them off so badly but I just didn't have the chance to. It's my turn on February 2017. I will make it happen. My heart is so fond to the promise that "We will go together...

A rainbow emerged after the rain. It was a very beautiful one. It has colours so vibrant that it stood out leaving the clear blue sky behind as a backdrop. This rainbow brings out light and it lit up the entire hemisphere. The spectrum of colours in the rainbow greatly respects the law of extraction. It was a colourful view to everyone's eyes. Nothing actually detained the rainbow. It must come out, eventually. It has been anticipating for the rain to stop. It has to be here after the rain. What you did not notice is the coming of this rainbow. Nobody saw it coming. Every soul was too submerged into the thought of rain and storm. The rain was surely, unexplainably terrible.   P/s : At one point, I was honestly very happy for you. To think that I could become this is an accomplishment for me.

Today is officially the last day of my fifth semester. I had my last paper which was a re-exam. I had early dinner with my bestfriend and I had done nothing productively since I got back to my room a few hours ago. Set that aside, I want to immerse myself into the thoughts of life. Precisely, my life.  I've got no words to describe what circles my mind right now. Literally speechless. I could write you thousands of words and pages of paragraphs just to explain what I feel right now. Okay. Contrary to what I wrote earlier, I am not going to write thousands of words or pages of paragraphs. Let me just be honest. I am just going to write one word and one word only. Love. Cheesy, as it may sound? It actually depends on your tone and how you say it. How beautiful and how sad everything in this world depends on how you justify it. I like to address things as subjective . It lies in between your definition. How you define things, in this context, love, may not be as similar as min...