Today, I finally noticed something. Actually, someone and some people. I'd like to make this post short so here is a list of things I noticed today at last. 1. Someone had been trying hard to get my attention since a few months ago. 2. Some gestures and talks are hard for me to understand, especially when they are shadowed by emojis. 3. If I don't make a step, I might not get something or someone. Simple. 4. I finally understand why some relationships couldn't connect. There is no spark. 5. We can casually talk about missing each other but there is always a thin line that separates the friendship boundary. 6. As a person who was given too much hints, I am on the shallow side. 7. As a person giving quite many hints, I am on the afraid-I-might-get-hurt side. 8. I used to catch up quickly but as I recently put on my ignorant attitude as a shield, I don't focus on complicated stuff. 9. I still haven't totally figured myself out. 10. My self esteem
I forgot how to write. I always wrote as if someone is reading. Now I know no one is reading, let me just pour it all out. I am so unsure of someone now. Is this the right person or am I being delusional? My best friend keeps saying "Don't settle for less" but how do I know if it's less, enough or just what I needed? I pray hard so that if this is right, be close and if it isn't, stay far. P/s: So casually cruel in the name of being honest.
I went back to Klang. Today is my first day. "First day blues," my father said. 3 months ago I was always avoiding the question of whether I wanted to come back. I thought of this as the last resort. Indeed, this is it and I couldn't deny that I need the money. I couldn't contribute financially to the house so I tried contributing in a different way. Tiring but home is where the heart is. So, on my first day, the first few hours were inviting. I started worrying if I was making a wrong decision by coming back. I had breakfast with the office staffs. They knew I was coming. Some of them kept on bantering about some trouble they were having with the regulations and some were just showing attitude. Come on, it was only my first day. I talked to my boss later on. He asked me if I had already signed my contract in which I said the HR apparently was still waiting for approval. As expected of her. He then mentioned about all the issues we both faced. The inefficiency o
Seronok bhaiii! :DD
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