Mencari Katarsis

Pernah sekali kau kisahkan padaku kerisauanmu terhadap si dia yang semakin hanyut dalam fantasi dunia hasil ciptaannya sendiri. Masa berlalu dan bulan berganti bulan. Kini aku terlihat bayang dirinya dalam dirimu. Kau mula memamah dirimu sendiri serta tanpa sedar, kau merelakannya. Lama-kelamaan, kau pula hanyut dalam fantasi dunia yang kau wujudkan itu. Akhirnya, kau tumbang dalam mainan mindamu. Soalnya, siapa yang kau kisahkan itu sebenarnya? Jauh sekali aku ingin menjadi enau, yang diamnya dalam belukar dan terlalu sibuk melepaskan dirinya sendiri. Tetapi hibanya aku, kau tidak tahu. p/s : ain, sorry for not telling you when i left. aku segan, ko dgn kwn ko, tetibe aku lak masuk kan :)

When you're forced to do things you don't want to do and to say things you don't want to say, you will feel hopeless. You'll feel the whole damn world is against you; in fact disagrees with you. Adding to that, no one else knows how you feel and feels how you feel. Frankly and honestly speaking, some people only know how to get angry and put the blame on your face. Neither they help to solve the matter nor they know to at least stay quiet. What a wonderful world and wonderful people in it. What you have are just the good memories of the past and the regrets of the present. You know, to hope for anything in the future is a pain in the ass. Come to think of it, time lies and that makes you and I live in a huge circle of lies. Again, what a great world! Somehow, you feel the world is better off without those people. What you do not know, or notice, the whole world is actually better off without you. p/s : hasbiyallahuwani'malwakiil

Beberapa hari yang lalu, selepas insiden gempa bumi di Aceh tu, aku online facebook. Aku scroll down, down lagi dan lagi. Tiba-tiba, aku terbaca satu post yang membuatkan aku tersentak. Bukan, komen pada post itu yang membuatkan aku tersentak sebenarnya. Maaf, awal-awal aku nak cakap aku bukan berniat nak offend sesiapa. Ya, sangat ironi. Islam itu indah. Jangan cacat-celakan keindahan dan kecantikan Islam itu dengan pemikiran kau yang sempit. Kita kena ingat tanggungjawab dakwah bukan hanya terletak di tikar sejadah. Tiada salahnya seseorang itu berkongsi ilmu dan menyampaikan dakwah walau di mana pun dia berada. Dan ingat, tiada orang yang sempurna dalam dunia ini. Jadi, aku, kau dan sesiapa sahaja kena ingat lagi yang kita perlu saling menyokong untuk jadi sesempurna yang boleh. Ada satu lagi perkara yang mengganggu aku. Kalau ye pun kau nak tegur dia, janganlah aibkan dia dalam profile dia sendiri. Kau boleh je hantar personal message ataupun instant messaging pada dia. Susah-susa

I went to the school today. Man, I'll stop coming to school. The last time I came I promised not to be there again. Why? Because it brings back those damn freaking old memories. Those damn freaking old memories you have when you and your friends were sitting in a circle, talking and laughing and those damn freaking old memories of you and your friends enjoying school life. And it puts me in despair whenever I remember those memories. Worse, it makes me feel devastated realizing they were all in the past, realizing you wouldn't get a second chance to do those amazing things you did in school ever again. And also, realizing you'd forget some of those memories or not be able to recapture the moments back. It breaks my heart knowing we will not have those kinds of laughter most of the time again. It really does. p/s : the past sucks, the future sucks more

Life has never been this good, as by my side she always stood. I've known her for quite long, long enough to sing the same song. With joy and laughter to portray, I know we would be very gay. Although life at times is full of lies, we speak the truth in our eyes. She's not that kind of girl, who cries at every swirl. She may seem hard on the outside, but she never confides, put that aside. Maybe she missed her luck thrice, all I know it's not fair at dice. Concerned of others, she is, whenever I need, she'd assist. She taught me to be strong, also to claim where I belong. Told you I got your back, so don't be afraid and just act. To separate in the future we may, we'll be together at hearts anyway. A five-years promise to hold, for my life to take control. Never did I think, we would be this charming hikhik . gaspard and lisa wakaka p/s : my best friend :)

My best friend just went far away, to find peace I would say. She got on the plane, as of nothing to explain. She was on 8 hours of flight, without any feelings of fright. She is ought to be brave, as she is no person's slave. She went to perform her 'ibadah, as it would strengthen her 'aqidah. One day I hope we could go together, at a place which offers some things better. She is called my best friend, as she would hear and understand. She doesn't even judge, so I gave her a simple trust. To love her for who she is, it is such a perfect bliss. Come back with time to spare, for I have tons of stories to share. Though we will part on some other day, I hope for now we could stay. p/s : wah dari mana datangnya ilham ni hikhik *kalo mase ko blk nnti, ko dpt baca post ni sebelum ditenggelamkan oleh posts lain yang akan dtg, i don't know what to say yoo hahahah