Mencari Katarsis

I thought for a long time about this. Whose prayer was it that made my wish granted? Who was the one to pray to The Almighty of my well-being? Because you know, I am certain that I managed to land a new job due to some people's prayers. Yo guys, I landed a good offer from the latest interview. I told you how determined I was to get a good offer. I did, despite my nervousness. I reminded myself to only speak of the truth and always be honest. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. So, I'm starting at a new environment soon. I have been patient and I will always have patience. "It is passion that drives you," I told my boss. Unknowingly, tears ran down my cheeks as I was adding "I really have big dreams, sir" at the end of our conversation. That was the time I saw the softest part of him. Ever since I was in school, I have heard many people saying I'm good, I did a good job, I have bright future ahead of me, I have potentials; all sorts of those pep talks and

It's 3.55 a.m. on an early Friday morning. I've been strugglin g to sleep since the past couple of hours. I fell asleep past 9 and woke up right after midnight. Ohh, hey there! Long time no see! Pardon my absence, would you? It was so hard to continue writing when all I had in thought for the past months was leaving the job. Tonight, I realized how it heavily affected me and the gravity of it changed me as a person. One of the changes that made me proud was I managed to stand up for myself. If you hadn't known yet, no one will stand up for you. No matter how close you are to your colleagues, how much you helped each other, trust me, they will not back you up. Everyone is busy attending their own mess and ass. Just so, I learned to be bolder and honest. I don't prefer to be reminded of the reasons I cried, fell sick and got stressed out. We can talk (if you want to hear about it) over coffee so we'll leave that out for now ya. Anyway, I went to an interview l