I forgot how to write. I always wrote as if someone is reading. Now I know no one is reading, let me just pour it all out. I am so unsure of someone now. Is this the right person or am I being delusional? My best friend keeps saying "Don't settle for less" but how do I know if it's less, enough or just what I needed? I pray hard so that if this is right, be close and if it isn't, stay far. P/s: So casually cruel in the name of being honest.
Assalamualaikum. How did I manage to survive the past one determining year? It didn't matter how actually, it matters that I lived out of that. Beautifully. Yeap. My life this past year was beautiful. Nothing was ever that beautiful. A fast-paced, beautiful year. How beautiful it was to me? Indescribable. I consciously remembered the moment I came in with a smile and a very positive mind. I made sure my mind was positive. Damn positive. More positive than those nerds getting ready to enter the examination hall. I was positive that I could make some friends. Amazingly, I made many friends. I love making new friends. "I treasure my old ones perfectly". I made friends crazier than me, more loveable, quieter, the ones that are smarter than me, more independent and surprisingly, I found the ones having the same way of thinking as me. Now here I am at 2.45 am reminiscing the most memorable year in my life. Yet. There is much more to come. I can feel it. Gee...
I went back to Klang. Today is my first day. "First day blues," my father said. 3 months ago I was always avoiding the question of whether I wanted to come back. I thought of this as the last resort. Indeed, this is it and I couldn't deny that I need the money. I couldn't contribute financially to the house so I tried contributing in a different way. Tiring but home is where the heart is. So, on my first day, the first few hours were inviting. I started worrying if I was making a wrong decision by coming back. I had breakfast with the office staffs. They knew I was coming. Some of them kept on bantering about some trouble they were having with the regulations and some were just showing attitude. Come on, it was only my first day. I talked to my boss later on. He asked me if I had already signed my contract in which I said the HR apparently was still waiting for approval. As expected of her. He then mentioned about all the issues we both faced. The inefficiency o...
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